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2 more days!! freaking 2 more days!!
sry ppl im too lazy to blog, these few days so tired la, SO FKING TIRED.
today went buy season parking for dad, sent darling off, and bought some present for teetee, yeeyee, and jingjing..
usually i thought i was too lazy to send darling off to airport n sometimes its late at night, but today i realise WHY.
its becoz i am afraid, scare, sending her off, i never know when she b back,
its like the feeling of losing her.. im scare.. im sad..
darling, i know its time, i gonna have to let u go.. sooner or later..
darling, i love you <3 , u have always been here for me, listen to my complains, be my trash can, but nevertheless, u still care n love me for what i am, no matter how dirty i am, u pick me up (:
today i thought, mayb retain will drag the time longer, but it only a form of running away,
i dunno y but recently i had totally no mood for study,
i wish time would stop, and stay there forever,
i am running away from everything,
its just tiring facing it,
with u gone, i dunno what will happened to me..
i will only sink deeper n deeper!...
but,
darling i promise u, i'll b strong..
i love u (:
<3 darling
- ting signs off ;p
8 more days!!
its freaking 8 more days to my birrrthday! woots, D:
oh BTW,
been having common test lately,
dam no mood for tests.
so im prepared to be damn busy when sch start. WHY?!
because.. FOR THE RE-TEST, LOL.
dam freaking tired,
GL for gay audit tmr <3
with love, blog more tmr, TIRED!
everyone, EVERYONE!
is born with the feeling, call LOVE
well , me too.
when there is love, there is hatred,
for everything u love, will become hatred.
1-
once u love ur best buddy, when u knew she betray u
ur love for her turn to hatred.
its the same for every scene,
once i thought he was my fren, a buddy,
he was there to cheer me up,
till the day he taught me to lie, to cheat,
he turn my life upside down,
all the love turn to hatred, regrets.
i yearn for love,
to love someone <3,
i needed someone to love n care for me,
for now, im mentally and physically weak,
my health isnt good,
my doc warn me, if i dont tone back my health,
there will be a high possibly, i will be hard to be pregnant,
or worst, the % that i will miscarriage is high.
i knew this, with now i having gastric pain,
horrible pain, i dunno what will happen next.
SIGH!
2 days ago,
my chest hurts alot, i told my parents,
it hurts when i breath, eat or drink,
it even hurts in my sleep,
i thought that it was cancer, or some serious disease,
i thought i would die,
yes, im afraid of dying, afraid of needles, afraid to go hospital..
but now, my chest still hurts,
i wanna die, i wish it was terminal disease,
i wanna die badly..
for every sin i did, i cant repent,
the sin will never be wash away...
i wanna die badly.. ):