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this is going to be the last post ._.
everything is so disheartening.
once, my heart was open to more ppl, but now its closed again.
if u cant stand my fucking atittude, tell me str8 in my face,
y cant u be more considerate,
fuck, u think i wan my illness? u think i wanna be sick?
u think i wanna to be scare of the dark? u think my mom wants me to go home early is all MY FUCKING FAULT?
._. its so sick n tirred, to my so called friends, now i realise, u guys r a bunch of bitches.
fuck off from me. fuck far ._.
this is going to be the last post ._.
everything is so disheartening.
once, my heart was open to more ppl, but now its closed again.
if u cant stand my fucking atittude, tell me str8 in my face,
y cant u be more considerate,
fuck, u think i wan my illness? u think i wanna be sick?
u think i wanna to be scare of the dark? u think my mom wants me to go home early is all MY FUCKING FAULT?
._. its so sick n tirred, to my so called friends, now i realise, u guys r a bunch of bitches.
fuck off from me. fuck far ._.
2 more days!! freaking 2 more days!!
sry ppl im too lazy to blog, these few days so tired la, SO FKING TIRED.
today went buy season parking for dad, sent darling off, and bought some present for teetee, yeeyee, and jingjing..
usually i thought i was too lazy to send darling off to airport n sometimes its late at night, but today i realise WHY.
its becoz i am afraid, scare, sending her off, i never know when she b back,
its like the feeling of losing her.. im scare.. im sad..
darling, i know its time, i gonna have to let u go.. sooner or later..
darling, i love you <3 , u have always been here for me, listen to my complains, be my trash can, but nevertheless, u still care n love me for what i am, no matter how dirty i am, u pick me up (:
today i thought, mayb retain will drag the time longer, but it only a form of running away,
i dunno y but recently i had totally no mood for study,
i wish time would stop, and stay there forever,
i am running away from everything,
its just tiring facing it,
with u gone, i dunno what will happened to me..
i will only sink deeper n deeper!...
but,
darling i promise u, i'll b strong..
i love u (:
<3 darling
- ting signs off ;p
8 more days!!
its freaking 8 more days to my birrrthday! woots, D:
oh BTW,
been having common test lately,
dam no mood for tests.
so im prepared to be damn busy when sch start. WHY?!
because.. FOR THE RE-TEST, LOL.
dam freaking tired,
GL for gay audit tmr <3
with love, blog more tmr, TIRED!
everyone, EVERYONE!
is born with the feeling, call LOVE
well , me too.
when there is love, there is hatred,
for everything u love, will become hatred.
1-
once u love ur best buddy, when u knew she betray u
ur love for her turn to hatred.
its the same for every scene,
once i thought he was my fren, a buddy,
he was there to cheer me up,
till the day he taught me to lie, to cheat,
he turn my life upside down,
all the love turn to hatred, regrets.
i yearn for love,
to love someone <3,
i needed someone to love n care for me,
for now, im mentally and physically weak,
my health isnt good,
my doc warn me, if i dont tone back my health,
there will be a high possibly, i will be hard to be pregnant,
or worst, the % that i will miscarriage is high.
i knew this, with now i having gastric pain,
horrible pain, i dunno what will happen next.
SIGH!
2 days ago,
my chest hurts alot, i told my parents,
it hurts when i breath, eat or drink,
it even hurts in my sleep,
i thought that it was cancer, or some serious disease,
i thought i would die,
yes, im afraid of dying, afraid of needles, afraid to go hospital..
but now, my chest still hurts,
i wanna die, i wish it was terminal disease,
i wanna die badly..
for every sin i did, i cant repent,
the sin will never be wash away...
i wanna die badly.. ):
FUCK IT!
lol!
was a boring day,
finally finished FMGT presentation ytd,
1 proj down,
4 more to go, horrible day.
today went home early, intended to go with jing n her sis to see her buy hp
but was horribly, madly, tired.
so i freaking went home.
decided to install MU n play abit but FUCK, the driver had problem,
bloody mu!
so went in to play aud instead, ass.
was playing ok, my skills DROP BADLY
i think it will take time before it come back, well i dont bother,
play aud juz KILLS my time
lols, went in today with bianbian
and saw 2 noisy noobs =.=
coz bian n i was diff team, so i said gimme ez moves,
den they say ' wa why give her ez moves, we better give her hard modes'
elo noobs, ur hard moves aint HARD, it was fking ez.
well i admit i miss, i admit i noob, but u NOOBIER!
if i nv mia that long, i can counter it easily =.=
chicken head, my brain is full of sch stuff! lol!
so now this noob A was pming noob B ,
she din pm properly so she spilled it ' that idiot dawnnie '
dawnnie was my nick in aud, WELL,
EVEN THE BLIND CAN SEE SHE IS SCOLDING ME RIGHT! lol!
so i scolded her, weeee, bian scold her too.
we 2 hotttie, LOL.
den she denied, saying that it was another gal.
for what i know, there is a brokendawn, and one more dawnn gal,
not DAWNNIE
and i check ranking, no such name.
pls la u think i born ytd? LOL, she keep pm me ask me dun angry =.='
bah, dun bother!
argh, my chest hurts,
drinking, eating, sometimes breathing hurt,
talking sometimes hurt too, i dunno y
mayb its becoz i fell down the stair tht time?
its internal injury,
i think i wait a few more days before telling my mom!
scare she scold me =[
well, bye peeps.
my new tag line.
FUCK that (:
HI AH PEK
lol! just <3 teasing u (:
tired day today, dam tired,
went make a wish there n help up,
do some labour stuff, lols, the bear so cute (:
make a bread myself, yum yum bread <3
2 egg, 2 baby honey bake ham, 2 slice of wheat bread, and NOT TO FORGET! BA KUA!
lol!
den after that went yeeyee hse do fmgt proj
all of us forgot that we had a presentation on wednesday,
so we rush and quicky do!
hope all will go well, WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
<3 so in love with anime, comis! ~D:
<3 allen walker & wolfgram!
d gray man + kyou kara maou r0xer!
woots,!
tired >.<
everytime i wanna cry, i force myself to smile